Wednesday, October 31, 2012

Walking the walk


One of my favourite podcasts is by Pastor Mark Driscoll, talking about Jesus welcoming the children to sit with Him and on His knee.
Driscoll points out that Jesus didn't only welcome the clean and tidy, quiet, well behaved children, He welcomed all children. Even the ones with boogers and muddy hands. He hypothesises that the disciples may have been in the background saying "oh man that kid wiped his nose on the master's robe"...
And that one grabbed his hair with her hands; I wonder where they’ve been .."
And Jesus loved it.
He said "do not turn them away from me"

Having this morning finished a stint on a mercy trip, visiting orphans and displaced kids, I want to share about my team mates who exemplified this same love and compassion to children.

We sing and say we want to be the hands and feet of Jesus, we say we want to do His will. Over this last few weeks, I have seen this in action. Every person on mercy team takes on becoming the hands and feet. Every person on our team contributed in the ways described below, sometimes reducing me to quiet tears through their humility, strength and focus on just breathing Jesus into every moment, everything they did.

They became, every moment every day, an empty vessel to be used by God. Every word thought and action was God driven.

Hands became the hands of Jesus.
Cupping the chin of a Down's syndrome child who wanted to make eye contact, wiping snotty noses, patting the back of a fretting child in the orphanage as they paced up and down to calm him, stroking the back of a blind child who cried in frustration as she rolled on the mats listening to the others play.
Wiping the saliva from a disabled young man's mouth, covering this young mans head with their own hands just to make physical contact, holding the crooked hands within their own and using the gentle pressure of a hand on a shoulder for reassurance. Getting that same young man involved ingroup games, pushing him in his wheelchair to enable him to participate fully.
Rolling a ball backwards and forwards over and over and over because that's what the child wanted to do, feeding a child mushed food from a spoon, trying and trying everything to encourage a chewing reflex as this past one year old child has only ever been bottle fed semi solid food through a cut teat on a bottle.
Stroking a child's forehead, smoothing her hair, washing her hands and face for maybe the first time in a few days.
Holding the hands of abandoned and neglected babies playing pat-a-cake, rowing the boat down the stream, twinkling the stars and just clapping for the joy of it.
Taking a child off a tired carer so she could have a breather, seeing their needs were met as much as the children's.
Throwing a child over their shoulder or in the air just so they could both hear their peals of laughter.
Pushing wheelchairs, holding walkers for little cerebral palsy children to take slow steps, holding crayons in twisted fingers to help someone draw a rainbow.
Giving a kazillion hugs and high fives, thumbs up or pats on the back.
Blowing bubbles, blowing raspberries, blowing kisses.
Folding little hands for prayer and grace, and folding their own hands time after time as they prayed for more strength and guidance, their hands became the hands of Jesus.

Feet became the feet of Jesus.
Kicking a soccer ball. Running with a disabled child in arms so that child could also kick a soccer ball.
Slowly and patiently, painstakingly walking alongside or in front of a non walker to encourage their nervous steps.
Walking the floors with crying children, fetching and carrying whatever was needed for them.
Walking the streets of the poor, with a hello here and there, a nod of the head, an acknowledgement, anything to make contact.
Running on the basketball court, following the child who may need help, stepping the kids though games we know well but which are unfamiliar to them.
Walking from desk to desk in the classroom to make sure they speak to and engage each child individually.
Kneeling to speak to a child, to help with a craft, to slip a shoe back on, or to comfort.
On the dirt, the cement, the orphanage floor or the village street, they walked as the feet of Jesus.

Eyes became the eyes of Jesus.
Eyes which crinkle in delight, open in surprise and play, and mist over in frustration and hurt.
The split second glint that meant a heart broke again, and seeing the eyes closed in prayer for a child, a baby, a carer or a team member.
Their eyes saw what needed doing. While others took photos or talked during a breaksome found the child with the grotty face and washed it.
Seeing the tiredness on the face of the nurse and smiling encouragement using their eyes to conveymessage as well.
These eyes never once looked upon any child with pity. They saw their crooked backs, their puffy eyes, their twisted fingers, their non-working parts, the hurt fear and anguish in their eyes and faces and all they reflected back was love. Pure and simple love.
They saw the sadness; the changing room where jumpers, pants and shoes are set in piles and each child gets whatever is on top of the pile regardless of how well it fits, what colour it is or if it matches.
They saw the joy. Of children filled to the brim with excitement and happiness just at being alive.
They saw the rows of cots, each holding a little person, and saw the beauty, joy and dignity of every child in the room.
They saw the faces of these left behinds and, knowing they may never find a home of their own gave their all so they would know love, even if only for a short time.
They gazed into the eyes of these precious children and communicated so much just through looking.
Some maintained strength by reading the Psalms. Eyes scanning greedily for the words needed to recoup energy, they became the eyes of Jesus.

Voices became the voice of Jesus.
Words of encouragement, of humour, of joy. For all they met.
Prayers for each child held, seen and met, though often silent.
For each carer, each street vendor and each person they had either the local dialect or their own in hello.
Prayers and praises to God for the small and big things, prayers of anguish for the hard things.
Words of incomprehension at a world that turns its back, yet of mercy for a mother who abandoned her child.
A simple smile or word of encouragement that could give another team member the confidence to go on.
Quietly singing to the children of nursery rhymes, plus songs about how much God loves them.
Their never ceasing prayers over each little person for protection, for them to find God and for their future.
Lips often moving in unheard supplication, the voice, even silent, became the voice of Jesus.

These people aren’t superheroes, nor super religious dudes, just average people, and they'll probably be embarrassed by this post, but these people come with a heart for God's children wherever they are, especially those who may never come to hear of Him to make a choice about their own fate and faith.

Their heart is the heart of Jesus. They see every person through the love they themselves know of, one you can't buy or earn, love that doesn't have bad days or moods, a heart that just loves.

And I loved seeing this love being poured so freely to those who don't know to ask, by some who care enough to tell.

"So let us learn how to serve and in our lives enthrone him
Each others needs to prefer for it is Christ we're serving "

The Servant King
Graham Kendrick

Random thoughts at the baggage carousel.


Starting with a PS yes my brain really is this hyperactive.

Maybe if I move over there I'll see my suitcase earlier then I won't have to panic

Why would I panic? It'll come back around again

Yes but I don't have that much time.
So maybe if I go over..
Damn that guy beat me.
That's okay I'll go over there instead and be one of the first to see them when they..
Damn that bloke beat me.

I definitely need to get closer.
Hang on was that...
Too late.

Huh! People paid to check that tiny bag? There were bigger suitcases in the overhead lockers.
Oh damn, I'm sure my suitcase was blue, it isn't here yet though.

Maybe it was one of those colours that looks blue but in this light looks....
Hang on was that.. No those people claimed it....
In this light looks black.

I did pack the blue case, didn't I? I didn't forget and pack the black one because that would really...
Hah! Cute suitcase!
... That would totally suck because I can't tell one black from another and look..
That lucky black suitcase has had four people look at it and put it back.

Oh wow that's a bright lime green, they probably bought that so they didn't go through this stress of making sure you get the..
Wow that pram's been around a couple of times now...

I wonder how many of these people waiting are as bordering on a panic attack as I am?
I wonder if they give special luggage conditions for people who have panic attacks at baggage carousels.
Well that's not quite true I have got plenty of time, I don't need to panic but I need to...
Hmmm that's that lime green bag again..

....get my suitcase get through customs and check it in at the next flight..
And there's that pram again

Wonder what's in that box? Oh a nappy change table, who knew?

And that's what panics me is that's don't know where to ...
Ooh ooh a blue suitcase! Oh that lady took it... oh and look its got a thingy on it so it's hers yep she wins...
... I don't know where to go to get my next flight in this bazillion acre airport and I'm busting for the loo.

And there's that lime green suitcase again I guess if you've bought a suitcase that obvious you don't need to rush over like ...
Jeepers, I can't see past that guy.. I bet my suitcase is there and he's blocking my
,....
now.
Now,....nnnnnn...now... Pfft.. That game never works.
So anyways it had better come soon, I don't know why mine's always last. Well not quite last but close to it.
I am really stressing about my time here, I'm.. Good grief I'm sweating I'm going to stink as well as be stressed and exhausted.
Man...
People pack some crazy stuff. Is that a clarinet? No maybe a trumpet? Hang on.. No it doesn't say... But it's an instrument of some sort... Why wouldn't you take it onboard?

Blue suitcase blue suitcase blue suitcase...
I'm sure it's the blue one. I should have bought purple, oh no. Look at all the purple ones. Not many blue ones.
Oh there's one, but that's not mine either.
Or is it?
It's blue.... And plain...
And..
Damn that I can't read the little tag.
I'll just grab it off anyway.
Oh joy I think it is mine.
There's that lime green one again, maybe the people with the pram own it.
I think that man thinks I took his case...
Hang on ill open it up just a .... Yes it's mine.
So long other baggage carousel stalkers.










Monday, October 29, 2012

Language barrier


People asked me before I went on a recent Mercy team how I'd communicate with kids who didn't speak my language.

Since coming back its the same. How did I go with the language barrier?

Let's look at language..

A smile says hello, goodbye, it's good to see you, I love you, you did great, you're funny, you're awesome.

Clapping hands say well done,  look at me.

A hand held up, palm outwards, says "high five"

A nodding head says yes, I know, that's good, I like that, you're doing well.

A frown says no, don't do that, stop, that's not right.

A pointing finger says over there, you, don't do that.

A shake of the head says no, I don't agree, don't do that.

A shrug says I don't know, it's all gone, where is it?

Open arms say all gone, come for a hug, I love you.

A hand on the head says well done, stand still, I know you're here.

A chuck under the chin says well done, you're cute, look here.

Holding hands says I care, stay with me, come this way.

A hand on the back says come this way, I care, stand still.

Patting the ground beside you says sit here, come here.

A combination of these gestures possibly changes the meaning but gets your message across.

Imitating the sounds or words of the child and the people around introduces their language to you. You easily pick up hello, goodbye, yes, no.

But really, in the case of visiting orphans, they just need smiles, hugs, high fives, care and acknowledgement.

They need their noses wiped, their hands cleaned, their hair smoothed, their faces stroked, their frustration felt, their shoes tied, their eyes searched, their hands held, their giggles encouraged, their back rubbed...

All they need to hear is the language of love.

Sunday, October 7, 2012

iSilence


The computers were down at work today. This may not seem too harsh or even blog worthy, but in this day and age, libraries (where I work) are technology based.

The day took on an interesting hue, as we explained to each person that there had been a power cut overnight which affected our network. Their comments went from reasonable "oh, okay, that makes sense" to rude "but I needed the computer today". Add disbelief "my power was fine and I live in this town" and anger "in this day and age that's ridiculous".

Naturally you wear all this with humour and grace (and coffee, lots of coffee) but what struck me most was the noise in the building. Or rather, the lack of noise. The absence of  noise which, as one borrower said "reminds me of the old days"

How much a part of life are these noises now? 

We don't notice them until we notice their absence. The almost invisible murmur of 16 computer terminals, the quiet tap tap tap of keyboards, the hum and smooth mechanics of the printers, the beep beep beep of the barcode scanners reading each book in and out.

The rustle of body movement on computer chairs, the gliding of the chair wheels as users move from desk to printer to desk, the rifling of paper as they check they have all the pages sprinted that they need,

The almost non perceptible click and slide of a disk drawer or USB key, the quiet conversations people have with themselves while typing and surfing. The clip of headphones being taken off and placed on desks, the small clunk of a mouse coming off the mouse mat while in use. The sigh of frustration or the snort of laughter. 

The quiet chatter of staff saying "go ahead, use number seven" or "I'll come and have a look at why your emails aren't coming up on google" or "you printed twenty pages and only need four? Of course we only charge for the four you needed".

From the desks where people don't use headphones comes the noise of YouTube or the bing bing or gunfire of games. The sound of conversations from one computer user to the next, the awkward conversation at the printer when someone else picked up your printing.

Instead, there is stillness and silence. 

The gentle scrape of a book being taken off the shelf, turned over and maybe placed back. The ruffle of the newspaper readers advancement, the whispered conversation between browsers, the gentle laughter of someone discovering a loved book,

The scratch of a pen, the patter of footsteps and the swish of clothing.

Until you get to the main desk where the staff are waiting. Their constant chatter, letting people know that the self check machine is out of order, yes, the whole system is down, yes it's a pity, no there's nothing we can do and yes our IT department are aware.

The apology that this makes the experience tedious while you wait for us to write down each barcode becomes "wow just like the old days when people had to wait for librarians to write card numbers and rubber stamp the card and the back of the book"

The apology that we can't use the system to search for a particular book for you becomes "lets have a look on the shelf, if that isn't there, there may be something else you'd like to try"

The apology that you can't play the computer this morning becomes "have you seen the comics and graphic novels in the kids section?"

The apology for lack of technology becomes a way to have a conversation, 
a way to let borrowers see there are real people not just self check machines, 
A way to use humour and patience to make the experience more...
Reminiscent?
Human?
Dare I say.. Fun?


While I love and embrace the technology that aids my everyday work, 
that keeps track of our collection,  
that helps people locate their information instantly, 
that helps them connect with the world, 
that means they can remain anonymous, 
sometimes it takes going back to basics, losing the clutter of noise, even barely perceptible noise, to reveal the beauty of the real part of my job. Connections. Connects with technology, information, books, but mostly with people.

Whether they like it or not.

Monday, October 1, 2012

Do my sighs look big in this?



It's no wonder I'm confused. Here's how the conversation went down. (Names changed) talking about church band.

Him: hmm jack just rang and said can I play Sunday instead of mark because he's at camp.
Me: so did you say yes?
Him: what? No, I'm ringing mark to see what's happening.
Me: um. Okay. Um, I thought you were giving jack more chances to play?
Him: what?
Me: Is that the kettle boiling?

Hours later, recounting the story to friends...
Me: to friend: so are you playing in band timorrow?
Friend: no. Have the day off.
Him: no, Mark's playing.
Me: I thought Mark was at camp?
Him: what?
Me: you said before that Mark's at camp.
Him: what? No, I said jack rang and asked can I play.
Me: exactly.
Friends wife: so Jack got the roster wrong, he wasn't playing at all?
Him: that's right.
Me: what? I so didn't get that out of that conversation.
Him: you never do.
Me: Hang on. If you had said "jack rang and asked me to play in his place because he's at camp, then when I checked the roster, Mark was playing anyway" I'd have understood you.
Him: I did.

The size of my sighs. They vary, depending on the day.

Today we visited a garden store. There was a beautiful 7 foot tall fibreglass elephant. I almost fell over in excitement.
Me: ooh, look at that elephant. It's amazing. I'd love that in the garden.
Him: we could call it stampy, like on the Simpsons.
Me: we could! And he could hide like he is now, and give people a surprise when they came around the corner.
Him: and we could charge the local kids for a ride.
Me: and then he'd pay for himself in no time!

*Takes a photo of said elephant and posts to Facebook.*

Me: I've never seen a pretend elephant that big. I mean they have those little ones about a foot tall but really what's the point when they're, like, huge. This is the most perfect thing for the garden I've ever seen.
Him: hmmm


Me: omigosh and look at it from this side! Ack! I love it. I wonder how much it is?
Him: pfft heaps, I'd say.'
Me: oh probably. Imagine though, taking it home on a trailer. Imagine all the other drivers doing double takes looking at it. How awesome would that be!
Him: um.. We're not getting it, you know that, right?
Me: oh, of course we aren't. But it IS great, huh?
Him: I'm serious, we aren't getting it.
Me: yeah, I know. But it would be pretty cool, wouldn't it? Imagine when we have grand kids and they tell their friends we have an elephant in the back yard. Heck imagine US telling people we have an elephant in the back yard.
Him: its not happening.
Me: hmmm. What did we come here for again?
Him: retaining wall stuff, barbecue, shade sails..
Me: not an elephant right?
Him: right.
Me: we're not buying anything today though are we?
Him: no, just looking.
Me: *skips* Ex-ACT-ly.

The size of his sighs.
They vary depending on the day.