Wow. So many people wondering about depression.
Wondering what caused it, triggered it, happened.
Nothing; I just thought too much, maybe.
Honestly, there was nothing that happened. I didn't read one thing, hear something, see or experience something.
Nobody said something that offended me, nobody gave me a 'side eye', I just sunk into nothing because of nothing.
However, having said that, my mind was a mess. I was exhausted physically and mentally and couldn't feel room for taking a deep breath. And everything just got too hard, too hard to even think about any more. I couldn't pinpoint anything in particular even if I tried.
I'm happy to be on the other side. Last weekend was truly one of the most emotionally harrowing I've had, and I'm thankful it's over.
I live in a beautiful place, I enjoy my job, have great kids, have more than enough of everything I need and an incredibly patient husband. So whats to be depressed about, huh?
Serendipity: (noun) - an aptitude for making desirable discoveries by accident. My mind meanders. I let it. Sometimes it takes me to dark, scary places, other times to frothy, fluffy places. I let it.
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