Medication schmedication.

Here I am in month two of withdrawal.
I took my last half strength dose 48 hours ago. So I'm totally tablet free.
The last 24 hours haven't been pleasant.

Just so you know, this isn't a pity party, nor is it seeking anything for me. I'm documenting for myself and for others who may choose the path of 'no more chemicals in me' as I have.
Know it may not be smooth but it may not be crazy either. Every one is different.

I've had brain zaps (which are just like they sound; like an electric shock into my brain) regularly -
I've had a hyper motivated brain which is even more tightly strung than normal.
I've had leg tingles, where it feels like something is under the skin or something sitting on my muscles.
I've had insomnia.
Like right now, 2am,  when I should be sleeping but can't.
I've had hyper, where I can't talk fast enough or loud enough nor critically enough.
I've had lethargic where I can't be bothered moving.

And that's just 48 hours!

So I did what any preoccupied insomniac does, I used Dr Google to see if I could find a remedy.
Because I'm, like, a busy person and have a full time job and I need to feel well -- who am I kidding, I just want my legs to stop tickling.

And I found horror again.
More people devastated at the lack of withdrawal information or support from doctors, pharmaceutical companies or... Anywhere.
More people even more depressed because they cant see the end of the withdrawal tunnel.
More people with 6+ months of withdrawal symptoms.

What the heck am I doing? Maybe I should just go back and recommit to them for life.

I found one thread in a conversation where someone suggested what I had sitting waiting to use but didn't think worth taking yet... vitamins. This guy swears by omega 3, mega B ... Ooh I have those, so I downed a handful.
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And now another 12 hours post writing that because I couldn't bear the brain zaps, i am ready to go back on full strength full time, seriously.

I am stuttering because my words aren't coming out as fast as my brain wants them to, I'm constantly zoning in and out because my brain is zapping... And noisy... It's like sand bags that keep shifting noisily in my head and it affects my hearing my concentration and my sanity.

People who I work with who know I'm coming off smile and say "you'll be fine, think positively" how little they know.
I am thinking positively. I'm positive this is the most insane decision I've made in a long long time.
Yes I came in to work, I couldn't have borne staying at home with this.. This zapping and shifting inside my head. 
And it's not every couple of minutes, it's a couple of times a minute but random. 
Gah.